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Sometimes I feel fat…


No, I am not.  And Yes I do know that.  I work very hard at the gym, I eat healthy and I am aware that I am very fit, especially for my age.  However some days I can look in the mirror and feel amazing and other days all I see is rolls and lumps where all the muscles I swear just were.  My body sits at about 15lbs more than competition weight when I don’t watch what I am eating.  My boyfriend eats everything and anything, usually covered in gravy or cheese, the kids are the same.  Click HERE to hear it from him.  Truth is, I was like that too for years.  Now I cannot eat like that.  However it seems that even when I think I am watching what I eat and not eating clean 100%.  My body adjusts and sits at almost 15 lbs more than competition weight…. And that 15lbs bothers me more than I like to admit.


I despise the scale with a passion.  I like to go by what I see, and how my clothes fit. Here’s some tips for tracking progress other then the demon box. However with the addition of my new trainer I have to take weekly progress pics, and oh ya… step on that stupid little scale once a week.  And it is messing with my head!  I have been consistently losing every week, however add in a bad progress pic this morning and even though I’ve lost just less than 10 lbs in the last four weeks.  I still don’t feel good.  Today I feel fat.


Here’s the silly part.  When I woke up to go to the gym this morning, I could see my abs.  Wish I’d taken a picture, because I really did feel great about how I looked.  Then I went to the gym and got on that scale and suddenly I felt awful.  Came home and had my other half take my progress pics to send to my coach and my mood plummeted.    The pictures were just bad pictures.  I was part way through getting ready to go to work, my hair was all over the place, and my other half doesn’t see what I see in the pictures ever.  Gotta love him for it.  But those pictures along with that little box put me in a bad mood.


So… What’s the point of this post?


Well I guess even those of us with the best intentions and mind set get upset by that stupid little box called a scale.   Yes my mood plummeted but it is coming back up.  I feel better having written this post just because I said it and can see how ridiculous it is to be upset by it.  I also think I need to find a way to weigh myself for my trainer without actually having to look at the number myself.  Hmm… that one could be tough!

Are You Going To Win?


I get asked this all the time.  Most recently by my friends over at www.transformationpics.com.  Also by friends, other competitors and complete strangers.  Just because I do body building competitions many people seem to think “winning” is easy.  I have not placed top 10 in the two shows I have done.  But winning is easy.  I win all the time.  I win by looking the best I have ever looked.  I win by having the guts to get on stage next to the fittest of the fit and looking and feeling great.  I win by knowing that the changes I have made in my lifestyle mean that I will be here for my children, their children and seeing as I had Big Kid at 20, likely my great grandchildren.  That’s winning!  I win and celebrate every time I lift heavier, beat a PB (Personal Best… I’m putting this in cause for a long time I didn’t know what that was and I was too shy to ask 😉

For me, I will not get on stage, unless I look and feel better than I did at my last competition.  Every single time you work out, the longer you work out, the harder you work out adds muscle, definition and form to your body.  I have two and half years of serious muscle built up now.  I cannot wait till show day.


Live and Learn

There are very few that can get on stage and win their first competition.  Just having the nerve to put on one of those itsy bitsy suits let along be judged and critiqued on your body is one major accomplishment.  There are oodles of people that get discouraged because they did not do as well as they thought they should have and never compete again.  I am not one of those.  My first show, I learned that even though I had heard it a hundred times, I needed major work on posing.  I also learned how a show is run, and I learned that even though I get nervous, I like being on stage.


My second show I realized that while I spent a lot of time on my appearance, there are some things that need to be “perfect”.  Hair and makeup seem like a silly thing to spend time on when you’re being judged on your physique.  These shows are a bit of a beauty pageant after all.  This time, I’m going to spend the money on pro makeup and hair.  I also learned that things like you’re suit, should not be “different”… I love my suits, but sometimes you have to go along with the crowd, there’s a reason certain color are popular, because they look better on stage…


Competition are Subjective

You could do one show and place first, and do another and not even make top 10 and do the exact same as you did at the first show and look better.  This is a subjective sport.  Different judges see and judge different ways.  Some of the girls I competed with at my first competition also competed at my second.  At the first show they placed top 10, and then did not place at the second show.  Most looked far better in my books at the second show.  However, it depends who is there, who your competitors are, who bring it that day, who the judges are.  Etc.  I actually placed better my second show then my first, just not top 10.


So yes, I plan on winning!

Fit Girl Problems

 Fit Girl Problems

7 + Weeks to competition


My hands are a disaster.

I wear my gloves religiously at the gym, but lift heavy enough and often enough and they don’t really stop all of the wear and tear on your hands.  I moisturize constantly, and I use a pumice stone on the callus’s when they get really bad.  Right now… they are a wreck.  To top it off its spring in Ontario and the wonky weather with warm one day and icy cold the next combined with all of the damp and quite a bit of time spent trying to get my new garden up to snuff for planting season means my arthritis is full blown.  The last few days they have been swollen to the point that I cannot get my rings off, I can barely bend them and they ache all the time.  This is not really conducive to competition prep, tried to go easy at the gym and give them a rest.  Even my straps were not going to help this one.  However I do not enjoy going easy and probably pushed a little too hard.   Either way Aleve or a bit of a break and I will hopefully be back to going hard soon.  (Ok, who are we kidding, I am likely going to go hard anyways… just hope my hands survive.)



I love getting dressed almost as much as I like being naked.  My problem right now.  If it’s small enough to “fit” it likely doesn’t fit my frame.  Size small shirts depending on the style fit my waist, and arms, but not my shoulders.  Stretchy pants in xs are lose by part way through the day.  Jeans may fit your waist but are too tight in the bum or calves.  This is a good problem to have I suppose.  But it certainly makes getting dressed interesting.   Dresses and tanks are easier, however I work in the office of a distribution warehouse.  Not really appropriate most of the time.



Restricted calories, early morning workouts, food prep, cleaning, kids, and boyfriend.  Ya.  I am tired all of the time.  Plus I am an incredibly light sleeper so even when I plan on sleeping in if my early rising boyfriend gets up early, so do I


Over-Doing it

Sometimes you need to let stuff slide.  Let’s face it.  Life on a good day is a lot of work, doubly so for us Mama’s.  I am not so good at letting it slide.  I need to work on this.  I kind of did this Sunday, by playing in the dirt in the garden instead of finishing the laundry and cleaning the house.  I don’t even remember going to bed Sunday night and think it may have been involuntary and I just fell asleep however when I got up yesterday  morning I realized that the laundry was in the wash from two days ago, so had to be re-run, somehow there was enough laundry created in 2 days for 2 more loads.  The kitchen was an absolute disaster and there were dishes, glasses and garbage everywhere.  I did a quick tidy and left big kid a note for some chores to do after school.  I’ll bloody well pay him as long as it gets done right.  I need a maid, or really a mom, or a wife to look after my house!



This takes prep.  If for some reason I am not prepared, like yesterday morning.  When I realized I had no Tupperware, hadn’t been grocery shopping and hadn’t prepped my meals yesterday (see being lazy and playing in the dirt above) I was at a complete loss.  No idea what to do, and so yesterday not only did I sleep through my work out because I fell asleep involuntarily Sunday night, my food sucked.  I improvised but it’s not really according to plan, I didn’t bring enough with me and well… ugh.   Eating the same boring stuff all the time is not fun, eating a crappy improvised version of it is even worse.

Ok… whaaa waaa waa.  I’m went grocery shopping on the way home.


I can comment on my arse, you can’t!

Boyfriend made the mistake while I was working on posing practice to comment that I need to shrink my backside to look like the girls in the show that win.  Well Duh!  His comment, I love you’re bum, but these girls have much smaller bums.  Gee Thanks Darling!  I know he wasn’t being mean, just trying to help.  I compete, he races cars.  (Talk about not feeling guilty about my hobby, his is far more expensive hee hee)… He also races to win.  And yes, I want to win, but really my first goal is to look and feel better than my last competition.  My arse is much smaller than it was 3 weeks out from my show last June and I am still 8 weeks out.  Plus, this is like the absolute last place that I lose weight.  I know all of this, he made a comment.  Still it bugs me.  Advice to boyfriends out there, especially when you’re girl competes in bodybuilding contests, unless you are her coach or trainer, keep it to yourself.   “You look fantastic!”  should be the only words out of your mouth, or “Gee I’ll do the dishes and clean the bathroom”

Ha Ha!  Loves him.  But I didn’t even ask “does this make me look fat” You’d think every guy knew this. Apparently not.





8 + Weeks and Counting Update

8 + weeks or 61 days to go!

Wow.  8 weeks until I am on stage.   It will have been a year since my last show, and I am so excited to bring it.  Not only do I get to compete in the masters division this time (35 years and up) I am going to bring a package way better than last year.  Every training session between last year and this year is going to make my physique that much better.  Some of the little things I have noticed since I have started hard-core focusing on this show:

  • Morning workouts way easier
  • Still lifting heavy, despite cutting back calories
  • Losing more weight without cutting all carbs
  • More intensity in my training


I have never been a “circuit” girl despite competing in fitness and bikini divisions where that is the norm.  I like to lift heavy.  This time around I am still lifting heavy but have incorporated circuits into every single workout.  3 exercises, 3 sets, no breaks.  Repeat 3 times and move onto the next 3 exercises.  In an attempt to add more HIIT and hating cardio with a passion I also have incorporated a 60 second of jump rope into each of these circuits as of this morning.  Results to come.

Progress so far

I began tracking on April 1.  My goal was to lose an average of 1.14 lbs per week between now and June 21st for UFE Showdown.  This seemed realistic, as once you are already very fit losing weight becomes far more difficult.  So far in 3 weeks I have lost 5.4 lbs averaged out to 1.7 lbs per week.  Higher than my goal, but let’s face it the last few weeks things will likely get much tougher.  The nice thing about being ahead of schedule.  So far I am not doing mass amounts of cardio, I am still eating carbs and dairy and I feel great.  No, no-carb brain going on here!


I have now officially registered for my show.  So there is no turning back.  I posted a link in the blog to suit decisions.  So if you have not already checked it out, please do and vote for your favorite.  I believe I have decided on the style of the pink one, but not necessarily the pink color (though I do love pink!  And being a breast cancer survivor I love it even more.  Perhaps a diamond ribbon on the bum?

I will be competing in 2 divisions.  Master’s Bikini and Masters Fitness model.  Which means 2 bikini rounds and one fitness wear round.  UFE is rather known for the ladies coming up with somewhat gimmicky fitness wear and I am undecided at this point.  Last year at showdown I made a last minute decision to go with the golf look I had brought, totally not taking into account that I do not play golf.  Hmmm… swinging a golf club on stage in 6 inch heels maybe not so swift when I’d only practiced a couple of times.  I made the decision since most of the sports / fitness wear back stage at the show was fitness wear.  Think sports bra and booty shorts.  Had planned on doing my sailor look but then felt too gimmicky and too close to my bikini wear.  Ugh.  Would love to do something to do with racing as it’s my sweetie’s big thing, hmm… going to have to give it some thought.  Suggestions welcome.

The kids will not be coming to this show.  They are home the weekend of the show, at least as of now.  Though I am trying to switch weekends with the one before because the Canadian Cancer Society 12 hour relay for life is the weekend before and I would like for them to come with me.   We will see if that all comes together or not (stay posted for the link on where to donate) It’s only a morning show so I will make plans for them.  I can still get pictures with them before or after the show but tickets aren’t cheap and I’m not sure it’s the right place for a hormone crazed 15 year old boy.


Epic Cheat

I had planned on a cheat night this past weekend.  My birthday is a little less than a month from now and knowing that I will be only 4 weeks out I did not want to set my heart on a big night out (it may happen, depending on where I am with progress at that point) So my sweetie took me to dinner on Friday night (hey, no kids is a mark your calendar event) So, What was the epic cheat?  Burger… loaded, French fries and an appetizer platter.  Couldn’t finish even half, but man was it delicious.


Note to self: when you have next to no-sugar in your diet, even a small amount of alcohol = major sugar headache the next day!

Problem with the epic cheat was it carried over through most of the weekend.  While not awful for a non-competitor we visited family on Saturday in the sunshine and had a few pints.  Followed by a fire with the girls, and on Sunday after a great workout and watching the rest of the family eat their Easter Sunday brunch, and working in the garden for 3 hours I may or may not have had part of a pint.  (Hee hee oops).  Ah well.  Not going to beat myself up.  While I would have been even further ahead of schedule during weigh in this morning then I currently am, I am still ahead of where I expected to be at this point and I am going to continue with my plan.


I originally said that I would re-evaluate my plans (diet, exercise etc) at 9 weeks.  Seeing as I am about at that point and still making gains, I am going to leave the plan as is, with the addition of my new jump rope addition to circuits and set another re-evaluation at 6 weeks.  This will be just before my b-day (BIG 35!)  So it may also be where I decide to plan for or not plan for another cheat…. Just so long as I can keep it from turning into an entire weekend!


Choosing a suit.

UFE Showdown is June 21, right here in London.

So, I need to make the decision as to what color suit I am going to wear.  My first competition I wore a lovely gold suit from www.suitsyou.com  I loved this suit, but I also knew I was taking a risk wearing it, unfortunately it did not pay off and it washed out on stage.  My second competition last years UFE Showdown I created my own suit which was bright yellow and blue.  I LOVE this suit.  It was different, colorful and a one of a kind.  I have also created a black one with some help of my sewing machine which I may wear for one of the bikini rounds at Showdown this year.  However since I am going to compete in both bikini and fitness model this year I have decided to invest in another suit.   A new one.  I am trying to go with the crowd a little this time and have looked at a tonne of pictures of what others are wearing this year, and last and what looks good with darker hair. Blue and purple are always popular, however they are two colors that I just do not like.  I have narrowed down my choices to pink, red or green.  So, help a girl out.  What would you pick for me

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